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BLIND

This lack of trust you’ve created between us,
has made a tug of war game out of my heart & mind.
All of those who use to stand by my side have turned the other cheek. I’m standing on my own now.
It’s all so much to handle at once.
You’ve fed my heart seductive lies, intricate thoughts & sleepless nights. What are your intentions?
Because all I see is Smoke & Mirrors behind your halve hearted eyes. You claim there’s still a heart left in your cold lifeless body, But words are cheap & your actions seem to be playing your body back Into life.

Window shopping for hope

The fear of no one loving me as he does sets in…
as I fade out looking into the window of his car,
The memories pass through and the feelings overwhelm.
The thoughts distort & confuse what’s left of my common sense. This  blind faith called love Is becoming a religion to my weakness. He doesn’t seem to notice the silence as he drives, But I grasp tightly to his hand to reassure myself that everything’s gonna be just fine.
He means more than he imagines, But he’ll never know, Or does he even care?
As the world falls to pieces upon his feet, does he realize that world is me? I’ve given more than I can handle & fallen deeper in this conviction….
Open your eyes, You’ve become not only my cure but the sickness.

Is there a name for that… oh yea bullshit.

Twenty Bucks says your games and lies won’t work on me this time. Even though we have such a long history together, I’ll never look back and miss you ever again….
The feelings I felt weren’t real & neither are you,
so let’s quit the bullshit and cut to the chase,
Boys like you are dime a dozen
and I’m not looking for the cliche type.

Defeat

There’s something missing, something incomplete.
It lies between my heart and the realm we call sleep,
the voids growing more intense as each day passes by
I’m not sure as to whats the cure is, or if theres even a cure. These thoughts run through my mind,
they stalk me daily. I’ll keep the body count of panic and helpless cries and you can be the audience.
Does this make you smile?
Does it bring you any emotion?
There’s a monster, it lays beneath and waits for me to
step down from my bed.
It holds this grudge that keeps me mentally dysfunctional.
They all say its imaginary but i swear it lurks for my soul..
There’s a thought that haunts my passion, It’s slowly destroying everything I once loved.
These are my very own personal demons.

Heartbeats on the table

As you spoke those words of fidelity & eternity,
I fell for every line that ever slipped from your deceiving, foul, empty hearted tongue.
I gave you everything and you took it as a meaningless gesture. I’m losing all hope in this love interest we’ve carried on. You swore I’d be the one you’d always keep,
but it seems shes the one your holding in your “keepsake arms”. I hope all falls down and you learn your lesson in heartbreaks. Vengeance is calling, but I’ll turn the other cheek. Don’t worry my dear I’m not as cruel and illfated as yourself. I’ll keep these words close, I’ll give you a reason to run from me. All may look well, but don’t think that will be the case for you.
You’ve stolen what wasn’t yours, it beats in sync with the lies you tell.  Can’t you see what you’ve done,
can’t you feel the wrong in what you’re causing.
I’m guessing your conscious called out sick again.

Days like these.

This is the world through my eyes, in my shoes.
Through these veins course ambition, pride, hurt, loyalty and fear. I stand a girl with broken hearts but strong ideals,
I keep my head held high and my eyes set on the path ahead. I wear my heart on my sleeve with discretion.
The compassion I seek is no longer there and these nights are getting colder. I’m finding my way into this cruel shameless world day by day. I’m making something against the odds of what you all say about me.
I’m setting all statistics on fire and fighting for what I believe in. I’m determined and I shall persevere this obstacle you’ve thrown at me, because I’m so much stronger than what you ever thought.
I’ve got a loaded gun and a mouthful of words that say you wont stop me this time.